A new beginning..

After receiving word of Melanie’s passing, I found myself in a daze of confusion, anger and depression. How could someone so young (32) pass away so suddenly? I lost one of my closest friends, but also gained some perspective about my life. When life gets me down, I become a binge eater. I soak up my misery with food and not the healthiest of foods. It was not until her passing that I realized several things about things I had/have been doing. I need to start taking better care of myself as a whole and can no longer procrastinate.

• Tomorrow I will be scheduling an appointment with my doctor to have a routine physical. I have not been to a “real” doctors office in a while and had a full work-up, so this will be a good start.
• I will schedule an appointment with the lady doctor to have my annual exam as well.
• Counseling is a high priority on my list right now as well, for both Jeffrey and myself.  He is one of the major stresses in my life, but that does not mean I am perfect.  I could stand to learn a thing or two (or maybe twenty)!  Jeff has a session tomorrow, so I am going to have him schedule one for me while he is there.
• Now that we have finally found and purchased the balance board for our Wii, I plan on using it more faithfully to help in my weight loss endeavors.  I enjoy walking on treadmills, but have decided it just is not a logically piece of equipment to have in our house right now. Lord only knows what would happen with those two little munchkins running around. They would both be sure to try to climb on while Mommy is walking.  Hello Biggest Loser (video game), here I come!

Baby steps may not get me to where I need/want to go, but it will get me there eventually.  I did not become this messed up in the noggin’ overnight, nor did I put on all this weight overnight, therefore, I am not expecting miracles.  Unless of course, you actually have the power to grant me one.

Here’s to happier, healthier Porter family in 2010 (hopefully)!