an absolutely, terrible, no good week.

Although it is only Wednesday, I feel compelled to call this the worst week in a long time. My moods have been all over the place as of late and while it was to be expected, I certainly did not anticipate it being like this. Getting a divorce was my decision and though the timing was not perfect, it was something that could not be avoided. So here I sit, diligently trying to find a way to make things better for the kids and myself.  Do I leave school on the back burner and find a full-time job or do I try to juggle the kids, school and working full-time?  Do I work part-time?  All of the anxiety and stress I am feeling right now has nothing to do with the kids or the divorce, but rather the financial position I am in.

Other things have happened to make this week one for the books, but until my divorce is final, some things just cannot be repeated.  And some of those things, oh goodness gracious, how I cannot wait to be able to share them with you and ask for opinions.  Some of my “secrets” are not really secrets from those around me, but rather for those of you who do not know me offline.  Is that messed up or no?  I want to share with you all the one thing keeping me from falling to pieces right now and it pains me to have to keep so much of my life a secret for now. So for now, I will keep dreaming about fitness equipment being delivered to my home so that I can take out all of my frustrations on the treadmill.  God knows of all the help I need these days.. and is it ever a tall order.

In case I forgot to update again, for weeks at a time, please promise me you will all have a fabulous weekend.