completely losing my mind.

Why is it that I have so much to say, yet am too scared to say them? I want to share with the world what has been taking place in my life the past several weeks, but am hesitant because what would people think? Would people turn their noses up at me for the decisions I have made or would they nod politely with acceptance? And if my actions were not enough to turn heads, some of the thoughts flowing through this brain of mine would be.

After the last post, I decided to hide out for a few days and re-organize my life. Everything happens for a reason and while I may not know that reason now, I do know that things will work out in the long run. Many changes will be taking place in the near future and while I do not know what what happen yet, I am excited about these changes.

• Ethan received his acceptance letter for Pre-School and begins September 14th.  To say he is excited is an understatement.  Since receiving the letter, he has been making mental notes of the school clothes he would like and the supplies he will need.
• Ethan and Addisons’ new babysitter will be moving into the house within the next two weeks.  Brittanie is an awesome girl.. she’s the little sister I never had and she’s wonderful with the kids.  I am definitely looking forward to this adventure.
• Come November, Lucas will be moving in with me, Brittanie and the kids.  He stayed with us this past winter for a couple of weeks, so it won’t be much different this time around.. he’ll just be staying with us for a little while longer than the last time.
• I crashed a four wheeler two weeks ago.  Nothing major, but it my heel is still hurting beyond belief.  The bruise, lumps and dents are almost 100% faded.  Luckily there was no major damage.
• I am looking at another new laptop, as I miraculously lost mine when J moved out of the house.  I have been looking at an Asus, but do not know enough about them yet.
• I had my lip pierced two weeks ago, but after smashing my face into Lucas’ back while riding four wheelers and then crashing a four wheeler on my own– I had to have the doctor cut the stud out.
• Have I ever mentioned the fact that during the course of this divorce process, I have hoped and prayed that Jeff would find a girlfriend so that my life would be easier?  Well, my wish is quite possibly coming true.  Please keep your fingers crossed for me, as it is the only way my divorce will be civil.
• Both kids have been sick this past week.  Ethan was diagnosed with croup and Addison is having bowel troubles again.  We’re in the process of settling all of it out, but it’s a long process.
• August 9th, Mama Bear & I will be going to see Saving Abel and Bret Michaels.  Odd combination, but we are killing two birds with one stone.  I have wanted to see Saving Abel for a while now and well, Bret Michaels is her heart throb.