Irresponsible.

You know those moments when you want to just “screw it all?” Well, I am having that moment right now. Getting a divorce has easily been one of the most liberating things for me, but also the most depressing. When I made the decision to walk away from my marriage, I knew full well that I was broke. I also knew it was something that could not be put off and that I would survive, against all odds. I have been actively looking for work and spending as much time with my children as humanly possible. Resumes and applications are always being passed back and forth. I have not worked in over five years and the thought of working again freaks the hell right out of me. And while Jeff is willing to continue paying for things until I find a job, I do not want to rely on him financially. I want to be able to do things for myself. I want to buy things for my children with my hard earned money, I want to finish paying off our rv and being able to pay for insurance on it (once I get an rv insurance quote) and I want to be able to provide for my children 100% on my own so that I can split the child support in half between their bank accounts. I do not have to have a glamorous job and do not expect to find one right away.. I just want to break away once and for all.